Maternity leave has flown by and this last week before I head back to work feels like it’s going by a million miles an hour. The dreaded, awful day is quickly approaching. I have stressed about this day since the day these boys came into the world. Everyone told me I would. Everyone said you won’t want to go back to work once they’re here. I just brushed it off, I didn’t believe them, until the boys arrived.
I have always worked. I got my first job when I was 15 and have been working ever since. I always thought I would be a career woman. I graduated high school early and got started right away with college. I planned to be a nurse, then changed to forensics, then went back to nursing, then I thought I might be a paramedic. And then I found motorcycles and EVERYTHING changed. For the first few years of riding, it consumed me and I lost interest in school.
I am a busy body, so I knew that once I became a mom I would plan to return to the workforce. Now the time is here and all I can think about is how I have absolutely no desire to go back to work. Not because I don’t want to work, but because I want to be with my babes. I am fortunate to have a job that allows me to work remotely from home aside from doing a few visits a day. I am also so incredibly fortunate to have an amazing family that will help me and Jake watch the boys in between our schedules.
Even with both of these things – my boys with family and me working remotely – I still can’t help but feel like I will be losing time with them. I have to keep reminding myself that they are not being taken away from me. I now have to choose how to spend my time outside of work. So my promise to them, my husband and myself is to take in every moment of being with them. To work hard for them, but play harder with them in return. To help provide alongside my husband so we can continue to live the lifestyle that we live. To remember that it will be hard, but it will be worth it. And most importantly right now, that they will be able to spend time with family who loves and adores them while Jake and I are away with work.
So to all of the other working mama’s out there, I salute you. Whether you’re working full-time, multiple jobs, part-time or being a stay at home mom (which is a never-ending job), I know how hard you work for yourself and your family. Moms are a different breed of human entirely, working hard and fiercely to provide for your family, no matter what the work is.